Oct 29, 2020, 11:10 PM Letter to B. from my life in New York /
Oct 29, 2020, 11:10 PM
to B.
B.!
I am curious about the 3d painting? I am Bulgarian American but do not like my birth country and wish it to not be part of my adventure, in word, in print, in .. well, for now.. although i have to deal with it soon and dread it. I have everything and more to be honest :) and am myself which I definitely like about the life I have - I spent years getting rid of my possessions and frankly this freed so much room for fun. Next week i have a performance and after that i have an inner debate with myself, last year i spent a lot of time in Spain and loved it with all my heart and want to try it possibly, the land of Salvador Dali. But to get to Spain i have to reroute from Bulgaria with everything that is going on in the world. Because I am my own president - the decisions i need to make in November are significant .. or maybe not? I rather drive a semi-truck around the US making impromptu installations along the way.
Were you speaking of a kink earlier? Sounded like you have some needs that are hard to figure by email? I'd love Monterey but sounds like a dreadful way to be locked in a house somewhere, not sure what to think of it but I certainly detest dinner parties especially when people don't dance on the tables, hiking sounds cool.
Mirena
I was kind of an ass TBH and apologized :) but it is truth and remains so.
Human beats Sun in power output. So The Matrix was right after all! /
Your body beats the Sun’s core in power density because it packs insane energy into trillions of tiny cells at just 37 °C using enzymes. The Sun needs 15 million °C + crushing pressure to fuse hydrogen slowly. Gram-for-gram, your cells are 5 times more intense than the sun core.
So The Matrix was right after all!
The other day I waved my phone and almost paid for something /
Public speaking /
To overcome the fear of public speaking you can remember that you were once floating hydrogen for billions of years before you became a human on Earth, and one day you will become something else again. Compared to that kind of transformation, speaking in public is only a tiny bump.
Why am I not surprised that a former Harvard president is a pervert /
Human writing is teleportation /
Human writing is so interesting, we read a sentence, a paragraph or two, and get transported completely out of our reality /
I miss you, Dad /
As I'm writing my book on my life in New York I'm currently at my travel as a census taker in Georgia. As I read through the emails from that time I encounter emails from Dad. He would ask how I am and tell me he loves me. I read the emails and cry a bit. I know he's dead but his love will never be extinguished, and maybe through this book it will live forever.
This video is from my dad’s 85th birthday on August 17th, 2023. The last time I saw my dad alive.
Why Jackson Pollock is not slop is the greatest mystery in art /
Unfair to Birds /
Unfair to Birds
Remember Summer /
I can't stand Bulgaria /
I can't stand Bulgaria
I mean I love the people and my DNA comes from here, obviously my parents had sex somewhere in it. But being in the US for 26 years basically most of my adult life I've integrated so much of the US DNA literally, I absorbed American molecules.
I can't even stand the radio here they only talk about the weekends counting the days towards the weekend. I mean work builds most things.
Small businesses do work hard here. But 500 years of Turkish slavery and then 40 years of communist slavery turned this nation into weekend waiters, nothing to look forward to, nothing to build, nothing to inspire. Everyone that can left this place. I'm staying only to arrange a few things but my mind and my life is in America or Western Europe, but Europe seems to be really sleepy too so we will see.
Why We Worship the Wrong Gods /
Why We Worship the Wrong Gods
In a White House banquet, why would you seat Cristiano Ronaldo, a man whose life’s work consists of kicking a ball, among those who have launched rockets, electrified transportation, and rewired global commerce?
Physical brilliance and relentless discipline deserve respect, but placing a professional athlete on the same pedestal as civilization-altering builders is a symptom of a society intoxicated by spectacle. Actually no! spectacle is great! I personally know many internet dogs who dribble a ball better than Cristiano Ronaldo. I think cats are even more brilliant, they don't even do anything, they just are. So I think the president should have invited at least a few dogs and cats on strength of entertainment alone.
Warren Buffett falls into the same thing, where he just shuffles money around and for many years ignored Tesla. I can't comprehend an American power figure basically investing in a Chinese copycat. Because not for a minute would I believe that the Chinese let Tesla make a factory in Beijing just because they like Elon. Of course they let him build a factory so they can steal Tesla's secrets. Everything BYD made was stolen from Tesla. Buffett was in bed with thieves, poured over with sugary drinks.
Now Tim Cook, of course. He turned a great company into a phone company. I used to have four Macs and an iPhone. I'm down to one 11-year-old Mac and trending towards a flip phone, except for the voice-to-text feature, which I use extensively and is the only way I actually write.
We must teach children to revere builders over ball chasers and money shufflers to build a civilization worthy of the stars.
In other words, my old refrain, go Elon, go NASA, go SpaceX! If it wasn't for Elon, I'm not even sure if Bezos would have been so inspired, to be honest. Before Tesla became a thing, EVs were not a thing at all. Now everybody does them and pretends they just invented batteries. I mean, if it wasn't for Elon, we would be back to horse and thought prisons.
So love for science, engineering, and the urge for building must be instilled in education and in children. Otherwise we will lose all the momentum and we will be back to boring bullshit.
Kids are bored at school because they teach them to read hundred-year-old novels. And they go on YouTube and see all this exciting stuff, and they're like, YouTube is much better, man.
See how nicely I ascended into a rant from a perfectly valid statement. This kind of stuff really fires me up, especially early in the morning.
You are a lot more powerful than the Sun /
Your body achieves a higher power density than the Sun’s core because ATP production and the thousands of chemical reactions it drives are packed into the minuscule volume of trillions of cells, running at a mild 37 °C with the help of ultra-efficient enzymes. In contrast, the Sun’s core needs temperatures of 15 million °C and enormous pressure to fuse hydrogen at a relatively leisurely pace, producing far less energy per cubic centimeter. Gram for gram, your cells are far more intense energy factories than the heart of a star—making the human body, in this very specific sense, more powerful than the Sun.
You are a lot more powerful than the Sun /
Your body achieves a higher power density than the Sun’s core because ATP production and the thousands of chemical reactions it drives are packed into the minuscule volume of trillions of cells, running at a mild 37 °C with the help of ultra-efficient enzymes. In contrast, the Sun’s core needs temperatures of 15 million °C and enormous pressure to fuse hydrogen at a relatively leisurely pace, producing far less energy per cubic centimeter. Gram for gram, your cells are far more intense energy factories than the heart of a star—making the human body, in this very specific sense, more powerful than the Sun.